The first time i self harmed was in 6th grade. I’ts not a continuous thing. I do it when I’m really sad or just feel empty, or get super angry and jealous. So I’d say about 3 years..
The reason for my first self harm was because my ex boyfriend made out with this other girl at a quince and it just really got me jealous. I felt like everything was crashing in on me and i couldnt cope with the pain, so i found an old piece of glass and cut my wrist open several times. It was the only thing i could think of, and i wasnt thinking right anyway because i was so upset about what happened between my ex and this girl. It relieved my emotional pain so much.. and i guess since then ive relied on it to numb how sad i feel emotionally. Now though, i dont cut to get over guys. I cut because im contantly feelings worthless and ugly. i feel like i can never please anyone and im not enough. im everything i dont want to be, and i just want to die.